Stress leave + Johnny Cash movie (good, but why was he never nice to her ever?) + getting picked up and driven back because I couldn't face it on my own + medicated + learning Livin On A Prayer, having a few hours of my old life back + hating my boss + feeling pissed off and exploited + staying with S and wishing I hadn't because she has the same cow postcard in her guest room as my uncle has in his and its fuckin freaky + getting huge hug and sympathetic ear from my boss today + being handed an index card with the name of a therapist on it + getting the highest possible marks on my french testing + seeing my hot pottery instructor at a rock show last night + sitting a dissenter in a high-level meeting today and feeling the weight of the world and not backing down but getting talked over and feeling scared + today is my first day on Paxil.