SO now I'm sitting here trying to be proactive and to plan ahead for a suitable event to mark the occasion. Not apathetically shrug it off and regret it later (see: 2 University graduations I did not attend.)

1) I can't think of what I'd really want to do, 2) I'm secretly crushed when people can't make it, with a lemon squirt of anger.

Why doesn't an army of amazing friends throw me the evening of my life? I don't know. Probably because I've been distant and alienating for 2 years and never had a posse in the first place.

Plus, my birthay's on a WEDNESDAY. Blow me.

tick, tick, tick. Ideas needed, and fast.

And, I've been on 3 dates with The Guy I Asked Out. He's 26, as suspected. He's also sort of alarmingly awesome. And me, in my post-breakup whacked-outedness, can barely even look at him other than peripherally.

Love,
Sucker